My Addiction is Alive and Well

I can not tell when I'm having addictive thoughts and behaviors. It's really actually amazing for me to be so aware of it.

I ran into an old friend, a male, and immediately I'm thinking of ways to "get" with him and he indicates some areas of his life he needs help and there I am offering. Now true PROGRESS will be to recognize it BEFORE the offer spews out of my mouth.

So, I take a back seat. Tonight my son comes over and its going to be about him and putting our cmas presents in the car. And cleaning up the house a bit so when all the cmas presents return, they have a place to go.

My SW wrote me yesterday telling me that she's happy with things...that we need to discuss the money/gifts from my stbx-husband and a few other minor things. She even mentioned "early dismissal!" I have to remember those positive things and not let my addiction run wild.

Today at work, I had visions of me drinking wine and I just can't do that. I have way too much to risk! I like being clean. It feels GOOD. Using, even wine, doesn't feel good any longer.