02-24-05 My Children Return Home
Court went in my favor. Everyone had nice things to say about me and as I walked out of court victorious, the judge smiled and me and said "Good Luck!"
I sang gleefully in my soul for the first time in a very long long time. The guilt over what I had became and what my children endured is behind us. Everything I wanted to change has been. I can function. I am happy. I feel like a good and loving mother. I have hope. Most of all, I have the emotional energy to be there for my children.
After court, I picked up the children and went to a friend's home where I became engrossed in the Dave Pelzer book I mention below. I became grateful for the man upstairs that called the police and not only saved my childre - but he saved me as well. I hold no ill feelings or resentments to anyone in the system. Not the police, the investigative social worker, the case worker, the lawyers or the judge. I feel whole and complete and without these people looking out for my children and working with me to correct what was wrong in me, I'd probably be dead!
I want to talk about what happened in court........
Everyone was rather jovial and the judge very friendly. After everyone introduced themselves, the County Counsel said that we were on calendar to discuss returning the children home. My lawyer then discussed my progress. This includes my attendance at NA/AA meetings, my completion of most of my case plan with 14 parenting classes remaining, co-parenting with my mother and daughter's father, the cleanliness of my home, and the obvious changes and motiviations I've made.
My daughter's dad's attorney said that he supported the children coming home. My son's dad's attorney ripped the social worker and said that was happy to see the kids return home, that he supported it and wanted to continue to be a part of our son's life. It took every ounce of my will power not to snort, tisk, huff or roll my eyes. I looked at the ceiling in the direction of the judge, with a disgusted and disinterested look on my face I'm sure.
Then the DA Spoke. She supported the kids returning home. She talked about the changes and improvements I've made and that she had conversations with my mother confirming our plan to co-parent. She said that all issues have been addressed and the children are safe to return home.
The judge went along with everything and soon was congratulating me as I walked out feeling completely overwhelmed by it all. I haven't really had the opportunity to cry about it because I'm still in shock that this happened.
Ya know, I love my kids. And I'm not a bad mom. I did however neglect their needs. Heck, I neglected my own and because I stayed emotionally and financially connected to someone that just took from us in all ways possible, I allowed our family to go through this.
That will never happen again! I will never ever put my children aside and sulk and wallow in self pitty! I will never enter into a relationship with a man that has no worth or values. They say never say never. I learned that the hard way but there's a few things I know for sure and that's I worked my ass off to get my kids back and they are now home. I'm the victor as are they. We are all happy!
I sang gleefully in my soul for the first time in a very long long time. The guilt over what I had became and what my children endured is behind us. Everything I wanted to change has been. I can function. I am happy. I feel like a good and loving mother. I have hope. Most of all, I have the emotional energy to be there for my children.
After court, I picked up the children and went to a friend's home where I became engrossed in the Dave Pelzer book I mention below. I became grateful for the man upstairs that called the police and not only saved my childre - but he saved me as well. I hold no ill feelings or resentments to anyone in the system. Not the police, the investigative social worker, the case worker, the lawyers or the judge. I feel whole and complete and without these people looking out for my children and working with me to correct what was wrong in me, I'd probably be dead!
I want to talk about what happened in court........
Everyone was rather jovial and the judge very friendly. After everyone introduced themselves, the County Counsel said that we were on calendar to discuss returning the children home. My lawyer then discussed my progress. This includes my attendance at NA/AA meetings, my completion of most of my case plan with 14 parenting classes remaining, co-parenting with my mother and daughter's father, the cleanliness of my home, and the obvious changes and motiviations I've made.
My daughter's dad's attorney said that he supported the children coming home. My son's dad's attorney ripped the social worker and said that was happy to see the kids return home, that he supported it and wanted to continue to be a part of our son's life. It took every ounce of my will power not to snort, tisk, huff or roll my eyes. I looked at the ceiling in the direction of the judge, with a disgusted and disinterested look on my face I'm sure.
Then the DA Spoke. She supported the kids returning home. She talked about the changes and improvements I've made and that she had conversations with my mother confirming our plan to co-parent. She said that all issues have been addressed and the children are safe to return home.
The judge went along with everything and soon was congratulating me as I walked out feeling completely overwhelmed by it all. I haven't really had the opportunity to cry about it because I'm still in shock that this happened.
Ya know, I love my kids. And I'm not a bad mom. I did however neglect their needs. Heck, I neglected my own and because I stayed emotionally and financially connected to someone that just took from us in all ways possible, I allowed our family to go through this.
That will never happen again! I will never ever put my children aside and sulk and wallow in self pitty! I will never enter into a relationship with a man that has no worth or values. They say never say never. I learned that the hard way but there's a few things I know for sure and that's I worked my ass off to get my kids back and they are now home. I'm the victor as are they. We are all happy!
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