5 Day Fever

My son has been sick for the last week. It started Thursday with a 103.7 fever and vomiting. Spiked to about 104.5 and held steady at 102 until finally, yesterday, it broke.

We are still out of school and plan to go back tomorrow. I've had to take time off work as my mother has been out of town and I always get panic attacks thinking I'll get fired. I hate the feeling but this is what I signed up for being a single mom and all!

HoustonChronicle.com - Boys involved in shooting played with toy guns

HoustonChronicle.com - Boys involved in shooting played with toy guns

This is incredibly Sad! I don't "care" what you steal if you break into my house. EVERYTHING can be replaced except a life. If they feel the need to break into my home, they can have it. If it happened at night, my feeling is that if I'm not pointing a gun at someone, they won't feel the need to shoot me or my children.

I'm torn on whether CPS should be involved at the point of removing the older child. I believe this is just another example of why we shouldn't have guns that aren't A) Trigger Locked AND (not or but AND) B) Locked in a Gun Safe!

But then as you see, what good is that if a burglar strikes when you're home? You just can't win huh!

Parent Resources for Santa Clara County

More on DD's Dad

After showing up an hour later than I told him too because he couldn't get ahold of me - nevermind I told him to just be here an hour after we hung up, he proceeded to not take her to Softball or to call my mother. He got a good chewing out by my mom who packed up the car and DS to go help with practice and she wasn't there.

The guy has literally no clue of what other's people's lives or schedules are like.

I have penciled his weekends in the calendar and they are everyother weekend starting yesterday. If he doesn't call me by (my mom says Wednesday, but I'll say Thursday Night) then if there's something else she wants to do, her time will be spent there.

I don't prevent him from calling to talk to her during the week - I never have - and I also am not going to set her up for disappointment if he's "busy" or "broke" which seem to be the two most common reasons he doesn't take her.

I'm grateful for this blog thing. Allows the the freedom to keep track of "incidents", feelings, and commitments!

Letter from Sons Father

and my comments to the SW


Just an FYI.

I just wanted to make you aware of his comments.

--------begin letter
Sorry I haven't Written. I won't bother you. I only want to say Congratulations!! You've worked very hard & a lot of people, including my family are very proud!! VERY VERY VERY Proud!

I'm stuck in double red for 2 more weeks then I'm to do an in custody program. 6 months 3 days now ??

When the dust settles & if no more charges come up like last time, then I should be out sometime in May. I don't know if I'll have to do another residential or not. [drug program] will make that decision. I give up!!

As for [son] I'm a loser and I'm going to back off. Let them decide!!

I just thank God in heaven for giving you the strength and wisdom and courage to move forward. I'm never giving up and who knows, this may be my turn. 40 is a good age to be clean.

Anyway, tell our son daddy loves him. I really do, I didn't realize how bad this had me. I do know I'm worthless unless I'm clean.

Please send a pic. I won't bother you again. Write if you want. Sorry if I went off track. I wrote to tell you Great Job. Hang in there K.
------end letter

I've decided I'm not going to write back but also don't want to be getting letters. I should have filed a restraining order last time he got out and kept calling. I try to be nice and cordial, but this is just really unnerving and something, quite frankly, I'm sick and tired of dealing with.

I have concerns regarding some of his statements. He's been to how many treatment programs and he STILL Doesn't realize the hold his addiction has on him? That's sad and if he hasn't learned that by now then I give up all hope he ever will. Anyone that knows me, knows that's not like me to say that but I've come to this point with him.

His comment about "charges coming up" has me wondering what's out there that they haven't pulled up and filed. I know that the DA always has one year to file charges so maybe he's afraid he will get Lewd/Indescency charges for his behavior in July....I'm still wondering why he's not been charged but I'm certain that's why he's in "double red". This is his now second arrest where he's been in "double red", the first being July.

While I feel no emotional attachment to him, his letters annoy me and I will not bring up [stbx-husband] to [son] unless ['son] mentions him first (which he only says his name at bedtime during prayers) because I don't want to upset my son. I continue to have major concerns and a general bad feeling regarding "reintroducing" Johnnie to him upon his release.

Anyways, just wanted to bring this to your attention. Let me know what night you want to get together or I'm home all day March 25th so anytime that day.

Poor Planning On Your Part....

Does NOT Make it an emergency on mine.

My daughter's dad has always been entitled to every other weekend but half the time never takes it. Well now that the kids are back, I can see that somethings really never do change.

After talking to my mother yesterday, indicating that he wasn't going to take our daughter this weekend, he calls at 1:30pm asking for her for tonight.

It angers me that he doesn't call sooner and I know if I said "we have plans" it would go against me as before he tried to blame me that she was "always busy." Fact was that I never knew if he was coming or not and I'll be damned if I'm going to have her bags packed and her waiting for someone that isn't going to show up.

If I was the "non-custodial" parent, I'd be in CONSTANT contact and that's another problem, he never calls to just "talk" to her or to make any kind of arrangements.

So I'll have a conversation that says that I'd appreciate a confirmation of his plans for his weekends by Wednesday otherwise we will assume he's not getting her and do our own thing.


And as I was typing this, my mother called to say he wasn't sure if he was going to come get her! OKAY!!!!!!!!! Whatever the heck that means!!!!