A general update on everything

It's strange.....

I feel happy. Fat and happy but not fat and miserable. I was so miserable before all this happened. As hard as it was not having my kids with me, it was more miserable having them and living in hell.

That's all behind us now. I'm doing so well that I just can't believe that this is my life. Money's tight, but my bills are paid and I don't feel like I'm not ever going to make it.

The kids are happy. We do more things together and I feel like we're talking together more.

I still have some things I want to improve on. The house isn't as well organized as I'd like it to be. I'm hoping with more room will come more organization. I think I have too much stuff for the small place we are in. Also, I want more of a bedtime routine - bath, book, bed. It seems like we kind of just fly around still and are not that "organized" when it comes to those kinds of things.

My daughter is amazing. I love her so much. She's really grown up. She is awesome with her brother and I can't get enough of her. I like it when my mom's out of Town and her dad has to work because I get to spend more time with her. We laugh and have the same interests in TV shows!!! Its all about CSI and X-Files!

As for John, he's growing and growing every single day. He's got a sassy little attitude about him and a very loving nature. I'm truly blessed. At his preschool performance last week, he said HI MOMMY between every song - there was about 9 of them!

My relationship with my mom is going well. I'm happy in that regard but would like to work on a relationship more with my dad.

All in all, things are good!