Pure Enjoyment
I cannot believe the level of happiness I have acheived in the last year. Its unbecoming of me to feel peace in my life. I have zero stress...well that's a lie, I still stress about money. The good thing is that payday comes and I have the ability to pay my bills. Before I was always so short that I couldn't possibly ever catch up. These days, its just not like that!
I spend the weekend with the kids, paying bills, shopping and cleaning the house. When I get home I have 3 things to do. Put clothes away, pick up stuffed animals and feed the kids. I don't have monumental tasks to complete. What I have to do, there is an end in site. That is another indicator at how "together" I have it.
Its so strange!
The SW came to visit last week and everything went well. I caught her eyeballing the bruises on my son's legs. The normal, three year old shin bruises. They look horrible and for a moment I felt guilty, but then I realized that I don't need to be and the thought left my mind. She really liked out new place. She was very happy with everything and we agreed to meet next month sometime.
My son's father has been calling more and more and my son seems to be handling the reintroduction well. Their next visit is this weekend.
As for my daugther's dad, there is alot of "drama" on that side of the family. I recently have taken a stand and done things I never dreamed possible. I was able to tell someone how I felt knowing full well it would hurt their feelings. I did it not to hurt them, but to convey the level of uncomfort I have in a couple areas concerning my daughter and her paternal grandmother. Her father seems depressed and has been gambling. I don't feel bad for him. His life is what he makes of it and he's chosen to view himself in recovery but yet he has this very bad habit. As long as the child support rolls in, what he does with his life is his own choice and none of my business. When child support is interrupted, it is still not my business and I'm now at a point in my life where if it doesn't come, we will be okay. This I know. THAT is a miracle.
I spend the weekend with the kids, paying bills, shopping and cleaning the house. When I get home I have 3 things to do. Put clothes away, pick up stuffed animals and feed the kids. I don't have monumental tasks to complete. What I have to do, there is an end in site. That is another indicator at how "together" I have it.
Its so strange!
The SW came to visit last week and everything went well. I caught her eyeballing the bruises on my son's legs. The normal, three year old shin bruises. They look horrible and for a moment I felt guilty, but then I realized that I don't need to be and the thought left my mind. She really liked out new place. She was very happy with everything and we agreed to meet next month sometime.
My son's father has been calling more and more and my son seems to be handling the reintroduction well. Their next visit is this weekend.
As for my daugther's dad, there is alot of "drama" on that side of the family. I recently have taken a stand and done things I never dreamed possible. I was able to tell someone how I felt knowing full well it would hurt their feelings. I did it not to hurt them, but to convey the level of uncomfort I have in a couple areas concerning my daughter and her paternal grandmother. Her father seems depressed and has been gambling. I don't feel bad for him. His life is what he makes of it and he's chosen to view himself in recovery but yet he has this very bad habit. As long as the child support rolls in, what he does with his life is his own choice and none of my business. When child support is interrupted, it is still not my business and I'm now at a point in my life where if it doesn't come, we will be okay. This I know. THAT is a miracle.
posted by Mom of Two Cubs | 1:03 PM
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