Status Quo

Everything is trudging along nicely. I must say that its really odd to come here and want to update but have not alot to say. I can recall a time that I could fill journal pages with nothing but negativity and drama and today, I just can't think of anything that's remotely negative.

I also don't want to come here and act as if life is so great that I've landed on a pink cloud, never to come down.

The reality is that life is life. I have great moments and I have not so great moments. The strange thing, for me, is that the great outweighs the not so great.

The not so great things in my life are my oil leaking car, weight, my sometimes lack of money, and my sometimes unmotivation to do "stuff!"

The great things in my life are my children, my relationship with my mom, my increasing income, my awesome new place, and my self esteem and positive self image.

I really can't complain and part of me feels like there should be something wrong and negative to write about. But it just isn't on the forefront of my thoughts.

As for the kids....my daughter will begin 3rd grade in the Fall and my son will go to Pre K but he will be there 2 years because of his age. His birthday is next week and he's going to be 4. He's an awesome kid, as is my daughter, and I am truly bless. I knew I was blessed when I was deeply disturbed and depressed. I knew it...I just couldn't freely enjoy it because I was locked in a world of mental illness and drug addiction.

Those days are long over! I no longer have to fake it to make it. I actually do it and I exceed my wildest dreams!