Uhhh Ohhhhh

I got a call today from my old apartment manager. Apparently my probation officer was looking for me. I didn't go into their office to update my address but I have left now 2 message and even sent a letter to my old probation officer with my new address.

Regardless, I am stressed about it. I'm sure nothing will come of it, but what if something does? I could go in violation. I did afterall sign something that said I would notify them in writing when I moved. And I did, I just didn't "physically" go down there.

About 4-6 months ago they told me I couldn't report personally and I had to make arrangements with my PO in order to report. So each month, on the 1st, I leave her messages, which always go unreturned.

I have myself all freaked out for 2 reasons. I feel like if it wasn't a big deal, she would have called my old number and then go the referral to the new number and reached me that way. But NO, she took time out of her day to come hunt me down and I wasn't there.

I have prayed about it. I know that I haven't done anything wrong and that I continue to test clean, I continue to obey the laws, I am doing the best I've ever done and so there's nothing they can hold over me. I still have that negative self talk, which most the time doesn't affect me. But at times it does. And when my freedom and all I've worked for could be torn down, I grow concerned.

So tomorrow the plan is to go report, change my address and drop off a letter. Then next week, I will make a huge attempt to get her on the phone to ensure that I'm in the clear!

Till then, I'll just continue stressing about it!